From a Creighton Student's Perspective
June 3, 2012
Senior, Biology Major
The second reading today describes finding comfortability with God. Sometimes we don’t feel worthy, we get confused, or maybe we feel that we don’t need God. For me these natural feelings can cause me to feel like a stranger to God, or perhaps even a “spirit of slavery.” When I read this term, an image pops into my head of a person with shackles lying in a dark dungeon. This person lives everyday in darkness and suffering but one day has a visitor. The approach of this visitor causes a frightening feeling for the prisoner because he is so used to being harassed by guards and unpleasant people. It is the prisoner’s own worry and feeling of unworthiness that causes this fright, much like worry and unworthiness can cause us to fear God and fear the faith to let him in. It is only until that visitor approaches the dungeon bars, opens the door, and unshackles the prisoner that the prisoner realizes the visitor should not be feared, but be thanked and loved. This feeling comes from opening ourselves and realizing that we are children of God, and he is there to carry our burdens and break our chains.
Recently, I had an encounter that reaffirmed where God fit into my life. I just returned from a ten-day visit to the Dominican Republic with a good friend who had been there numerous times in the past. We spent much of the time visiting families in rural campos completely immersed in the Spanish language and Dominican culture. My friend, Nick, being fluent in Spanish and having met many of the families before was at ease the entire time. I had a much different experience. I spent the first night in the campo wide awake thinking, “Why am I here? I could be back in Nebraska comfortably spending time with my family, but instead I have thrown myself into an extremely uncomfortable, awkward situation where I don’t belong!” I woke up the next morning quite demoralized. It was only until I pushed through the next day that things began to get much better. I met people and made relationships that I will never forget, and it was only after that I realized God had touched me in that personal darkness. I realized that it takes uncomfortable situations like that for me to notice that God is right by my side to make me feel at home. While different for each person, I think these encounters help us to realize that we are children of God rather than his slaves.
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