Printer Friendly Version: Week 33
Next
week is the final week of retreat. This week we look back, to
contemplate
what we have received in this retreat - God's love itself. And
we consider
our response. Our desire for this week is to
be filled with a deep sense of the gifts we have received, and so
filled
with profound gratitude, we will be moved to love and serve God, in
all things, in our everyday lives.
Two convictions guide our reflections:
This week we want to open our hearts to the broadest sense of God's love that we can imagine. Using images like the rays of the sun's warm light or the overwhelming power of a constant waterfall, we will consider how God's life giving presence and love flow in and through all of creation, given to and for us.
Use the helps for getting started, to the right, to enter into these exercises of appreciation in detail.
With each level of gratitude, we want to express our love. Our response, and our offering of self in love, is what seals and strengthens the bonds of love between us and God. We will grow in a sense that all we have is gift. As we have grown in freedom, we can surrender ourselves in love more and more completely.
All week, with growing gratitude and deepening affection, I will make offerings of myself in these or similar words, until they become mine:
Take,
Lord, and receive
all
my liberty, my memory,
my
understanding, my entire will -
all
that I am and possess.
You
have given all this to me.
I
now return it all to you.
It
is yours now.
Use
these gifts according to your will.
Give
me only your love and your grace.
That
is enough for me, and all that I desire.
If
you
haven't done so already, please fill out the anonymous form to the
right,
to give us feedback on the retreat. Thank you.
What
we are considering:
For
all these months, we have considered our relationship with God.
We
now draw it all together in order to understand and appreciate all that
God has given us in this retreat, in our lives, and what God continues
to give us.
The
grace we ask for:
Our
desire for this week is to be filled with a deep sense of the gifts we
have received, and so filled with profound gratitude, we will be moved
to love and serve God, in all things, in our everyday lives. The
prayer
for this week, helps us ask for this grace.
Our
Daily Life Contemplation:
It
is
very important to try to focus our attention this week on gratitude for
God's love. The two "convictions about love" from our guide are
critical:
love consists more in deeds than in words, and love involves the mutual
exchange of gifts between the lovers. It would be very helpful to
set aside some brief prayer times, using this simple help:
The
daily means:
These
reflections will become a part of the movements of our everyday lives
this
week if we can make use of the means we've been practicing for so
long.
It involves how we focus at the beginning and end of each
day.
If we get up each day and "capture" a moment to focus our consciousness
and desire for the day, at the time we do something very routine (like
putting on our slippers or robe), we develop a "pattern" that will
serve
us very well this week and all our lives. It changes the way we
experience
our busy days. That brief moment is there every
morning.
We just need to use it. And if we take a similar moment
each
night, before we go to bed, at a routine time, we can end each day
"receiving"
and giving thanks for the graces we receive. In that brief,
nightly
moment we can grow in awareness of God's activity in our busy days and
become more and more grateful, even in the most difficult of times.
There are opportunities throughout the day, in all the background times we have. Driving, walking from one place to another, pausing to think, transitioning from one thing to another. Those times are there, no matter how brief. They are usually filled with something - some worry or planning or "daydreaming." We can use them - even if they are 30 seconds long - to focus our attention, to return to the thought and desire of the morning, to note how this upcoming event of my day fits into this desire I have. Some examples might help.
I am taking a shower. My mind is already zooming about the day ahead. Can I focus, for just a minute, for even a simple prayer? "Lord, help me to know you are with me today. I need you. Help me to stay open to discover ways you love me."Whether I find time for prayer periods this week or do my reflections throughout the week in the background times, it can be very profitable to keep repeating the "Take, Lord, receive" prayer. Perhaps to memorize it, or find my own words for it.I am driving to work. My mind is perhaps filled with what I need to do today. Perhaps I have others in the car with me. Perhaps it's my habit to listen to the radio. Can I take just a moment to return my focus to the Lord's presence? It will change how I listen to the radio or deal with the people I'm with in the car. Perhaps I am alone and can turn the radio off and give myself 20-30 minutes of time to focus and reflect. I could look at each of the events in my upcoming day and prepare to enter into them in the way I desire.
There will inevitably be some challenges in my day, perhaps even some conflicts. As I become more and more reflective, I will become more and more familiar with the "patterns" I display. In the "approach" to those situations and people, I can take just a moment and let the background reflection prepare me. Perhaps I can take a slow, deep breath and in 15 seconds pray: "Lord, I know you love me. Let me experience your sustaining love and care here." Or, "Lord, you have forgiven me so many times for this pattern. Thank you for your love and mercy. Fill me with your peace now." Or, "Lord, you have let me desire to be with you before. Let me be with you here, so that your love can flow through me." Or, "Take, Lord, receive. I offer myself to you in this. Give me only your love and your grace. I ask for nothing more."
Make use of the various resources provided for this week. The For the Journey, the Readings, the Prayers, and sample words for our attempts at expression, in "In these or similar words." And please take time to fill out the response form for us.
The whole retreat comes together this week. The Lord who brought us along this path will continue to bless us with his love and with the grace for our response.
There is an irony imbedded in this, the final Exercise of the Spiritual Exercises of St. Ignatius. Though it is the final exercise, the making of the Exercises never ends. God does not send us a certificate proclaiming that "You have successfully finished the course." Paul himself, wrote that he had not reached the finish-line, but presses on. So we finish our beginning and continue our being created and recreated by the love of God. Two points for Ignatius were very important during these last exercises: love consists more in deeds than in words, and love is a mutual handing over to the other of all that one has. In the first For the Journey we are encouraged not to look for progress or lack of it during our journeys. Instead, we have been encouraged to watch Love at work, manifesting that love in deeds and in the handing over to us all the gifts of grace and life which we have been offered.
This week we pray with the receptivity of children who sense how deeply they are loved. Ignatius wrote these Exercises to be very personal and so we move from the general, "we" to the very particular, "I."
There are the children in our culture, who at the end of opening all their Christmas presents might have a feeling of "Is this all there is?" Maybe after evaluating his or her siblings' gifts, he or she might feel cheated or less-loved. This is very human and understandable.
I am encouraged to be the Christmas-presented child who after seeing my gifts and those of others, wants to look at my parents and relatives and wonder, "Why are they so good and loving to me?"
It is in this spirit of grateful wonder that Ignatius asks me to make some response of love freely. "All I have, You have given me. You do not want them back, but that I receive them well and what I can give You back is my selfish, possessive and exclusive possession and use of them. I ask only that You bless and grace me in our future together. That would be enough for me and a beginning for You."
I walk through a world of created gifts. Trees, flowers, birds of all sizes and kinds, amazingly diverse and all these presents given to me.
I look up at the moon, the stars, I marvel at the changes of the weather as the sun moves back and forth keeping this world at the proper temperatures for life and growth. All this God hands over to me.
I return to the child-like puzzling at the littlest things and muse that God has always and is always at work to hand things to me. God is laboring to attract me, but not force me to see the Divine finger and hand and arm and Self, creating me and all else for me as well. This exercise increases my awareness of how everything is a gift and at the same time an invitation. I am both the recipient and the responder. Once I am aware of how God exists in everything and everything exists in God, how can I keep from singing, from watching and listening, from sharing and from wanting to know what is being offered at any one moment of my life? The River of God's love flows on whether I am attentive to its presents and presence or not. I want to be less unavailable to the Giver of love Who works and does things in my life so as to reduce me to the wondering-child of God that I am. The "Child of God" is a mature human who knows what things are, where they have come from and where they are taking me. All things which come from God return to God, including me.
We do not leave the Exercises, we leave to live with them as ways to constantly recover sight and sensitivity to the goodness of God and the goodness of this God-love self that I am.
Dearest Friend Jesus,
My heart is so full. I feel loved and honored and graced and flawed and loved all over again. I am full of wonder for the love I feel from you and for you. Yes, I am so aware of my flaws and how they sometimes keep me from feeling the love you are pouring on me at every moment. But right now I also feel your deep love and care for me especially right there, in my weaknesses, those parts of me I want to hide in the dark. Your love brings it out into the light of your warmth and suddenly, I seem to be freer from it.
Now, after these many months of talking with you, loving you and accepting your love in a whole new way, I realize that you will always, always be with me, even in – or especially in – my weaknesses.
And the gifts! So many gifts you have lavished on me over my lifetime. I feel so deeply your love for me. I see the many ways you love me each day, in the world around me, in the many people you put into my life to love me each day.
The line from scripture returns to me over and over as I ponder this joyful puzzle: what return can I make for all that the Lord has given me? What is it, Jesus? How can I ever show you the kind of love I feel for you or thank you for all you have given me? I want to give you everything I have.
I want to respond to these many gifts in some way that comes from the deepest part of my being and every time I think of the many ways you have loved me and given me gifts, I know I want to give you everything I have.
Jesus, you have given me so much, just as the prayer says: my mind, my liberty, memory, understanding, my entire will and my being. Everything I am in this life, I am because of what you have given me. What can I ever do to thank you? Please, dear friend, may I present these gifts back to you? Can I ask you to use them in this world, for your world, in any way you would like? I want to be free enough to offer you my life. What would you like to do with it? How can I use my life to serve you in this world? How can I love others, as you would like me to?
I look forward with great joy to the weeks and months ahead, dear Jesus, so that together, as we continue to talk, I will discover the answers to these questions.
I
thank
you for my life. I thank you with my life.
I will ponder with great affection how much God our Lord has done for me, and how much He has given me of what He possesses, and finally, how much, as far as He can, the same Lord desires to give Himself to me according to His divine decrees.
Then I will reflect upon myself, and consider, according to all reason and justice, what I ought to offer the Divine Majesty, that is, all I possess and myself with it. Thus, as one would who is moved by great feeling, I will make this offering of myself:
Receive, O Lord,
all my liberty.
Take my memory,
my understanding, and my entire will.
Whatsoever I have
or hold, You have given me;
I give it all back
to You
and surrender it
wholly to be governed by your will.
Give me only your
love and your grace,
and I am rich enough
and ask for nothing more.
Intimate
knowledge.
That's what I ask
you for, Lord.
I want that insight,
that understanding, that knowledge
that will be about
our intimacy.
Many gifts.
Let me count the
ways you have loved me.
The gifts of your
love.
All that you have
given me.
All that I am.
I so often look
at my shortcomings.
Let me see the gifts.
All of them.
Filled with
gratitude.
Fill me, Lord, with
gratitude.
Let my heart,
sometimes filled
with so much else,
be filled with thanksgiving.
Give me the feelings
of gratitude,
of a grateful heart.
Joy, freedom, peace,
generosity.
In all things
love and serve.
Let the overflowing
gratitude in my heart
touch all
the things and people in my life.
Every thought, word
and deed.
Every hurt, every
slight, every loss.
Every reaction and
response.
Every opportunity
and choice.
Every offering of
myself.
In all,
let me love and
serve you.
Amen.