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[259] Is 50:4-9a Ps 69:8-10, 21-22, 31+33-34 Matt 26:14-25

Weekly Guide for Daily Prayer The Daily Reflections

When I first saw the readings for today, I immediately identified with Isaiah and the Twelve, because like most people, I like to think of myself as one of the "good guys".  It took me a couple of times reading through to realize that I have almost as much in common with Judas as I do with Peter or James.  I wish I could echo Matthew or John saying, "Surely it is not I, Lord?" but as a sinner I have betrayed Jesus countless times.  I have betrayed Jesus when I shun the "awkward guy" or act impatient with my friends because God has made each of these people in his own image and likeness.

As many times as I have betrayed Jesus Christ, there is one fundamental difference between Judas and myself and here it is: I have asked for forgiveness.  Despite the shame and embarrassment and weight of my sins, I have and continue to go before God to ask for forgiveness, because I know he will show me his mercy and even make me whole again.  Still, usually when I go to the sacrament of reconciliation, I expect to encounter God in his vengeance and justice.  Then, I realize that, "The Lord God is my help" as Isaiah reminds us today.  God only wishes to build me up, to make me more holy, and to grow closer to him.  Instead of meeting God in his wrath, I see the arms of Jesus Christ wide open and I "behold the Heart which has so loved men".  

What would have happened if Judas, like Isaiah, had remained loyal?  But even more, what would have happened if Judas had repented his sins of betraying the Son of God?  What if he would have come on his hands and knees begging for forgiveness from the Son?  What if we, despite the shame and guilt of our sins, go to the confessional and receive the Divine Mercy of Jesus Christ? 

Jesus, I trust in You!