I am tired. Here in the middle of the United States the days are short and the temperatures are cold. I am tired of stepping cautiously on icy sidewalks and scraping car windshields and putting on layers of clothing before heading outside. I am tired of this Ordinary time in the liturgical year between Advent and Lent. I am tired of being disappointed by members of my community, and tired of not being aware of how I am disappointing others. I am tired of being overwhelmed by the multiple comforts in my life such as a steady paycheck, a warm and safe home, and engaging work when so many people have so few comforts.
Today as I read the Gospel from Mark I immediately relate to the exhaustion felt by the apostles. As they had not even had time to eat, Jesus tells them to Come away by yourselves to a deserted place and rest a while. And like the apostles, I do not try to answer away my exhaustion but simply see it as my current condition.
As my prayer continues, I grow to appreciate the loving care Jesus shows the apostles. Jesus must have been exhausted as well, yet he urged rest for those who have been serving with him. What a gentle shepherd Jesus is during this exchange.
Jesus as shepherd is the main theme through all of the readings today, especially the beautiful and familiar Psalm 23. A gift of reading scripture is each time I encounter the words new images and meaning spring forth. Revisiting Psalm 23 today helps my exhaustion subside. I pray for the desire to be open to Jesus as my shepherd. Beside restful waters he leads me; he refreshes my soul. Only goodness and kindness follow me all the days of my life.
Usually I am an optimistic, high energy person and my prayers are often asking for guidance on how I can take action to better serve. Today I trust Jesus and pray for grace to rest my body, mind, heart and soul. I am called to appreciate the wisdom of keeping Sabbath. I also trust that once I rest I can again be more present to my own desires for a deeper companionship with Jesus. And I pray to open myself to the good shepherding of Jesus.
The Lord is my shepherd, there is nothing I shall want.
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