Every time I read today’s Gospel by John, I feel troubled. Now, certainly not in the way that Jesus must have felt as he reflected on his imminent betrayal and death. But I feel troubled because I can’t understand how Judas could betray Jesus for a few coins and how Peter could deny him three times to save himself. Jesus and his apostles were close. Their friendship and love for each other had developed over several years. To be betrayed in such a manner just didn’t make sense. How could anyone who loves someone so much be so weak and give in to such temptation? I would never do such a thing! Well, easily said.
Although I would like to think that I would never betray Jesus, upon reflection, I know I do. Whether it is betraying the teachings of Jesus and the life he modeled for us, or betraying a close family member or friend through unkind words, or betraying oneself by acting in ways inconsistent with one’s values, it probably happens more than, at least, I would like to admit. Despite my allegiance to Jesus, I have to admit that, at times, I betray him.
As disconcerting as this is, John’s reading give me hope. Just as Jesus understood that his Father would accompany him through difficult times, we must understand that God will do the same for us. So, rather than despair, let us be mindful. Let us be on guard and catch ourselves during those times when temptation is great. And let us act according to Jesus’ teachings. Not out of fear, but out of love and with the understanding that God is with us along the way.
As we go on with our day, let us appreciate our close friendships. Let’s do what we can to nurture them despite the occasional betrayal. After all, Jesus not only reminds us that God is with us, but he also models forgiveness no matter the act - we can certainly do the same.
Michael Kavan
I am currently the Associate Dean for Student Affairs at Creighton University School of Medicine. I am also a psychologist and a Professor of Family Medicine and Professor of Psychiatry. I have been a faculty member at Creighton University since 1988 and teach classes on a variety of topics related to behavioral medicine, depression, anxiety, and interviewing skills for medical students and residents. In addition, I practice psychology at one of our family medicine clinics.
I am happily married to my wife, Mary, and we have four daughters. I truly enjoy working with medical students and assisting in their professional development. I like to spend time cycling, running, fly fishing, reading, and spending time with my family.
I greatly appreciate the opportunity to write these reflections. They provide an opportunity to reflect on the daily readings at a deeper level and determine how best to translate the messages into practical advice for day-to-day living. In doing this, I truly believe we may begin to live out the message of Jesus Christ.
