Today’s readings challenge us to confront our tendencies toward unbelief and the role that belonging to a group may play in those tendencies. Although we may wish to define ourselves distinctly as individuals, we are also infused with a deep desire for belonging. We are wired for community. While that desire is good, it can also get us into deep confusion when the group loses its way. In that sense, we are very much like sheep: we need a shepherd to rescue us.
In the first reading, Moses is that shepherd. With the benefit of hindsight, we can look with wonder at our predecessors and their willingness to embrace an idol that is so clearly unworthy of worship and unable to deliver the good that they desire. Given the preceding narrative of miraculous deliverance from captivity, their decision makes no sense at all. But somehow, we can also identify with their bad decisions and their resulting plight, which puts them in the soup together.
All such journeys begin with a single step, and sometimes those steps take us where we do not want to go. Maybe they became distracted and bored. They got a little carried away. But it did not take too long -- “yada, yada, yada” -- before they end up “depraved”. That is a strong word. We do not like to think of ourselves in that way, as it sounds hopelessly disordered, beyond remedy. Fortunately, that is not the case.
The gospel reminds us that even the religious folk, who keep from getting carried away at all cost, have their own problems with unbelief. Jesus’ discourse about testimony and faith reminds these people that they are not so far above their predecessors as they may think. The record is full of evidence, but they are not able (or willing) to see it. Again, with the benefit of hindsight, we know they are missing something. But their plight is ours, too. Even with a “good” life, the comfort of our own paradigms can keep us from recognizing our own flaws. Here, too, the desire to belong can sometimes keep us from recognizing the truth.
While our human dignity depends on the special identity and giftedness that each of us possess, our faith depends on reconciliation which brings us into a community. Truth is the basis for real community, where love and belonging are real, too. Jesus is the embodiment of that truth. We need more of this in our lives. And we need to be reminded (often, it seems) not to accept the inferior substitutes that we so readily embrace, which may seem to provide comfort, but cannot deliver what we really need. In our Lenten journey, may we continue to be open to seeing anew the distractions that keep us from following Jesus and from real community. Thanks be to God.
Edward Morse
Ed Morse is a professor of law who holds the McGrath North Endowed Chair in business law at Creighton. University School of Law. He and his wife Susan are Catholic converts. Together, they operate a family cattle farm in rural Western Iowa.
Writing these reflections over the past fifteen years has helped me to learn and grow in faith. Sometimes it has also chastened me by reminding me of the constant need to practice what we have learned as we live out our faith journey together. I am grateful for feedback and encouragement from my fellow travelers.
