Fear, suspicion, insecurity, self-doubt, jealousy, envy, resentment are key words underlying the first reading as is faith, loyalty, belief, and trust. Saul’s fears, insecurity, envy and jealousy lead him down a path in which he is willing to take another man’s life.  Fortunately, he had Jonathan who took accountability, took a risk and intervened to save David’s life.  He stepped forward with faith, loyalty, belief and trust.

How does fear, suspicion, insecurity, self-doubt, jealousy, envy and resentment affect my life? In my personal or professional life what actions do I want to take against others based on these feelings? Am I aware of these feelings? Am I any different? How am I different? What prevents me from taking action? Do I have daily practices that make me stop, think and reflect? Do I have people in my life who are willing to intervene? 

I do trust in God, I am faithful, I have had many experiences in my life that I know have been interventions by God. However, I know from experience that daily life struggles, emergencies, chaotic schedules can prevent me from taking needed time. Needed time to slow my pace, reflect, pray, and complete the Examen. Reflection, prayer, completing the Examen provides me space to sit with God. During this time I become aware of my inner feelings and desires. This awareness leads to a consciousness which leads to action. Action to change and redirect my energies more positively. 

In God I trust; I shall not fear can be built into our daily prayer, Examen, and reflections. Today’s readings are a reminder of this for me, a reminder of God’s love, and a reminder that I fulfill one of my purposes in life for God when I practice this level of faith.