Reading this text, I wonder what the disciples did following their missioning and Jesus’ departure to teach others (Mt 11:1).  I imagine them talking about what they heard and how they felt.  What follows is one possibility.     

Gathering around the table, the disciples ponder the meaning of their commissioning.  Matthew broke the silence.  I do not know what to think about our commissioning.  Sheep sent into the midst of wolves, both shrewd and simple (Mt.10:16).  How is that even possible?  Jesus tells us not to be afraid, but I am unsure I am ready.  Thomas reminds the group that Jesus called each of them.  I, too, have doubts, but I trust Jesus knows what he is doing.  Judas replied in a somewhat cynical tone, The twelve of us are only going up against the Roman army and the temple priests.  What is there to worry about?  Thaddeus responds we are to become like our Master.  Although the work might be difficult, like Jesus, we should not be afraid of anyone (Mt10:26).  Simon the Cananean joins the conversation.  You surely remember the Sermon on the Mount and his other teachings.  He wants everyone to hear the message of salvation.  We must do this if we are his workers in the vineyard (Mt. 9:37-38).  The conversation continues late into the night.  The disciples share more questions, words of encouragement, and fears.  Peter, known for his take-charge attitude, remains uncharacteristically silent. 

As the oil lamps dim and the conversation slows, Peter speaks up.  My friends, do I need to remind you who we are following?  The Messiah.  The One promised by the prophets.  Andrew and I left our father to follow him, as did you, James, and John.  Matthew, you left behind financial security, fine clothes, and a beautiful house.  We all made sacrifices because we know we have found the One to free our people – perhaps free the whole world.  I hear your questions and uncertainty about our ability to do his work.  We have seen Jesus cast out demons, heal the sick, teach, and stand firm against anyone who uses the law to oppress the poor.  We will never be greater than him, but it is enough that we become like him (Mt 10:24).  He has assured us we only need to fear the one who can destroy both soul and body in Gehenna (Mt 10:28), but we can put aside that fear if commit to serving God.  It is getting late.  We can talk more about this tomorrow.  For now, I leave you with one more question for your reflection.    

If we are true believers, even if we have doubts and fears, how can we not accept the gift of this commission and everything else that comes with following Him? 

If you are insulted for the name of Christ, blessed are you, for
the Spirit of God rests upon you.  (1Pt 4:14).